Loathing

from Not My Body by Socha

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It starts, all fun, it starts fun and games,
Until it goes all wrong, when it’s played any other way.
And I don’t like to depend, on anything,
But there’s always exceptions.

Cuz there’s a loathing, inside of me,
It fills me up, with a jealousy,
If I’m no good at anyone else,
Can I please be good at myself.

Lips part their eyes on me, I’m wondering if they will see,
Night comes I’m losing sleep, my own self doubt is haunting me,
Scared because they’ll think I’m a failure,
Or scared because I know they don’t care?


Cuz there’s a loathing, inside of me,
It fills me up, with a jealousy,
If I’m no good at anyone else,
Can I please be good at myself.

I walk this fine line
Between peace of mind and
Wanting to analyze

My reach my place esteem
And so selfishly my
Gaze charming ways
for looks and praise

Sometimes I want to destroy everything I know
Protect me from a buildup start over and go
I want to fall so hard and someone care for me
Sick of self aware and this honesty

Cuz there’s a loathing, inside of me,
It fills me up, with a jealousy,
If I’m no good space at anyone else,
Can I please be space good at myself.

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from Not My Body, released January 19, 2017

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Socha Brooklyn, New York

I make soft songs about hard feelings ✨

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